catching up

Lately, I've just been feeling so thankful for this insane life I live. There are plenty of days when I want to pull my hair out, the kids are both crying at the same time, the dogs won't stop barking at a tree, the floors are dirty and my laundry is piling up. But then there are days when all of that is happening, and my girls are still smiling at me every time I glance at them. And I've realized that they aren't going to remember the laundry, the dishes or that I hadn't vacuumed that morning, they're going to remember when mom laid on the couch and snuggled all day, or the day mom was super motivated and we did fun art projects and ventured outside. I truly can't even believe how fast time flies by. I've started to brainstorm Hollys first birthday party and Lacey only has two months left of school this year. I start my third and final trimester of pregnancy tomorrow and it's starting to hit home that 1.)I'm about to have another tiny human joining our family and 2.) I'm literally never in my life going to be 28 weeks pregnant again. And not that I enjoy being pregnant, but it's a very weird feeling to know that I will never experience these things again. A close friend of mine gave birth to her baby boy today and the picture brought me to tears, I can still smell that hospital smell of a fresh baby, the overwhelming feeling of love for someone you just met, the pain of childbirth recovery and the cries of a newborn baby. All of those things, I get just one more time. And with our son. It doesn't get better than that. I know that I must go through with getting my tubes tied, because if I don't, I will be wanting another one within six months time. I think for my sanity and the marriage with my husband, we should probably keep it at three lol. I just have so much running through my head lately that I don't know whether to cry, scream or laugh, but it's all good, I know that much. 

So much has gone on in the past few months, Hollys first year is almost over and I can't believe how much she's changed and grown into this special little girl. She just recently started pulling herself up on things and has already given herself quite a few bruises in the mean time. I can't quite decide if I really want her walking by the time I have the baby or not, while it may be convenient, it could also be terrible lol. 

This last weekend was so fun with the kids, I feel like we're always busy with something and we didn't have too many plans so it was nice to relax. Friday night, Lacey had a movie night at her school where we watched The Good Dinosaur. She's never been to a real movie before so I think at first she was confused why it was so loud and why the lights were off, but both the girls did so good the whole time, so it gives me hope that we could sometime soon bring Lacey to the movie theater. On Saturday, we ran some errands and then had a little fire outside, roasted marshmallows and hot dogs and just enjoyed our time with the kids. They had so much fun "pretend camping" even when it rained a little bit. 

My dad decided it was time for a gun for Lacey, so he got her her first pink BB gun. The funny little girl she is, she thinks it's a PP gun, and I convinced her to shoot it once. I think dad is having more fun with it than she is. They spent the evening scouting for crows to shoot at. 

I can't wait for summer nights with these two! And to maybe, just maybe have a little bit of a finished yard for them to play in, won't hold my breath though lol. On Sunday, it poured outside and was super stormy, we took a trip to the feed store for Trigger and the girls got to see the baby chicks. I promised if Lacey helps set up a brooder, we'll add a few more to our flock this year ;). Holly was in love with the chicks but she seems to love any animal! Great, another child obsessed with animals. 

We colored Easter eggs in the afternoon! Somehow, it always sounds so fun in the beginning and then mom ends up finishing all the un-colored eggs. But it was fun while it lasted. Holly sure wanted to help, but her idea of helping right now is not my cup of tea. She did color a few though! 

Holly experienced her first watermelon slice at dinner on Sunday and she is in love. I think she's had watermelon for every meal and snack since then. 

And to finish off our weekend, we fed the scraps to the bunnies and chickens and cut some fresh flowers outside for the kitchen. I can't say enough how much I love weekends with no real plans. 

Looking forward, I know that we are going to be so busy, but for now, I'm enjoying this dreary Monday, sitting on the floor in the playroom, listening to the kids giggle and play. I can't imagine my life any better than it is in this very second, but I know, the best is yet to come.