waitin' for baby

Today, I wrote little lady a letter in her baby book and it really got my thinking about how much I don't want to forget in this amazing time. Yes- pregnancy sucks, yes, I'm miserable and yes, I can't wait for it to be over, but that doesn't mean I want to forget this special time I've got to spend, not only with her growing butt inside me, but with this winding down clock of just me and Lacey every day. 

I must say, this last three and a half years with Lacey have truly been amazing. I can't believe I've been so blessed to be able to spend all of my days with her. And of course, there are plenty of days where I probably wish she would take her toddler attitude out on someone else, but the fact of the matter is, I have six months until she isn't a toddler anymore and I know I'll be dying to have these tantrums and fits back. She really has turned into such a kind, smart little girl and I'm so happy to be her momma. I feel like with Lacey, we've gotten over so many hurdles so far, big girl beds, sleeping alone, sleeping all night, potty training, the list goes on and on and now, I'm starting over. Am I crazy? Some days I honestly feel like I'm crazy. But then I think of all the things that have come and gone and I get so excited to relive that again, especially with her by my side. I can't wait to see Lacey relive those moments of crawling, walking, first teeth, first words and she is at the perfect age to understand those things and teach her little sister. I can't believe how excited Lacey is that her sister won't have teeth. Lol. There are so many experiences and things, as a mother I get to see again and I'm so happy that Lacey will get to be there for each of those. 

I want to remember exactly where we were in life at this point in my pregnancy. The point of "please bring me in for a c-section because I'm so tired of being pregnant and don't have the energy to even think about another vaginal delivery" I want to remember that we don't even have grass outside of our house right now, we've only lived here for three months, I still have a terrible habit of starting projects and not finishing them and that I've become excessively OCD since this time in my life while pregnant with lace. So much changes in a matter of a year and if I think back to this time last year, we didn't even have a barn on our property or the thought of living in this home that we do. And I know that at this time next year, I'll be so busy planning a one year old's birthday party, that a lot of this stuff will slip my mind. 

I want to cherish these last couple of weeks, maybe even one week, that I have with Lacey, and always remind her that she will always be my sugar bean. And as much as I want this baby to come out, I also want to slow down in the shower, enjoy my sleep at night, make my husband his favorite meals, spend time with him before I'm a hot mess at the end of every day, and enjoy my life as a family of three. We are days away from becoming a family of four and I'm so excited to start this new journey with my amazing family.